29th December 2005,
I realise this a few days ago when Felix said I don't listen. I used to be a good listener, a friend that can sit long with you and listen on the sharing and just being there, to just listen. I used to be...yet...just recently I realise that it's no more. My ear as if has been shut, and my heart has been very impatient with the deep sharings- I wonder why is that so. A listening ear, slow to speech and quick in listening. Felix has been pissed off when seeing such change in me- I don't wanna listen anymore, I have enough sorrows of my own. That should not be the attitude. A listening friends....I need them when I need them to listen, so how should I react when others need my ear, my heart to identify with them, and not by giving any advice, just as friends, being there- knowing that you care...
O Lord, forgive me for my impatience and my lacking in listening. Help me to be slow to speech and quick to listen, help me to be wise in the words that I choose that it will not tear others down, but build others up. That my mouth may speak of blessings, and my presence will bring comfort and love. Let the word of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be ever pleasing to You, ever pleasing to You Lord. Take the coal and cleanse my lips, here I am...
